Here I Am

Here I am waiting
for something bad to happen
like it would be
all according to plan.
I am sitting here like
an idiot waiting for a fight
until he can see
the tunnel's end's light.
I was told to sit,
to wait and stay
as if my destiny is
for this to be my last day.
So I listened to them
like a blind man who trusts
anyone who will speak
no matter how much of a lush.
I await whatever dangers
I inevitably bring on
myself in a hurry
on what seems my last dawn.
Consider this here
my letter for goodbye
as my soul is fully ready
to permanently lie down and die.