These Breaking Dawns

A day of doubt
followed by encouragement
to heal the wounds
and fill in the left dents,
the darkest days
need these breaking dawns
to silence the thunder
and calm the storms.
The amazement is palpable
of God's timing
to bring these lights
when the will is dying
but He never lets down
and is always present
even through the storms
we are convinced aren't meant.
The bringing of
the fruit for which
we tirelessly labor
is never the glitch
and always when
we need it most,
the blessing of
the Holy Ghost.

Last Ditched Effort

The fight is better,
the encouragement is coming.
The thoughts that shouldn't
be there are running.
The weight that held
me down and back,
that fetter is lighter
and beginning to lack.
It lacks acceleration,
it lacks traction
to gain the speed
to take the action.
It can't get its footing
long enough to trip
me or my momentum
or to cause a dip.
Its lights are slowly
dimming in its twilight
as soon it will say
its final goodnight.
It is now throwing
its last ditched effort
to a spirit that won't
let it get the better.
Its hopes are done,
its goal is failed
in my soul's triumph
that to none will pale.

Your Own Savior

Don't strive for perfection
because that is not what moves.
Don't reach for the sky
because that cannot improve
the serenity that can be found
in the vulnerability in which relatability
hides at all times that you doubt yourself
and your own merit and reliability.
When you feel words are jumbled
is when your honesty and candidness
are at the height of their effectiveness
and ability to move a heart away from brokenness.
The times you feel you are not heard
are when ears perk up the most,
when each and every spoken verb
hits the drums of each and every host.
When you feel the most like your voice is silent
is when the ones who need you come
from the woodwork in which they were hiding
until the right time and the right voice would summon.
Their inner-most thoughts of self-consciousness
that were thought to always be present
have gone away in favor of the words you spoke
and because of the effort and time you spent.

You will have the moments when you think
that no one out there cares
and you will have the moments when you think
there is nothing on the horizon but despair
but just remember in those moments
of your deepest and darkest thoughts
that you have brought others from the brink
as you will bring your own heart back, no matter how distraught.