Answers They Don't Have

This is a poem from a couple months ago that I never posted...sorry for the delay but I hope you enjoy a blast from the past writing style/mind that I carried:


When ideas run rampant
without an outlet
why should I not
act upset?
I know there is
some reason or rhyme
but what if I don't
have the time
to take to figure
or take to discover
when it seems the process
is immediate for others?
I can't turn to them
for the answers
that they don't have
for this, my cancer.
I can't turn to those
who seem to luck out
and when they don't give
I scream and shout.
They don't have
what I'm looking for
or what I need them
to have in store.
There is only one
place it is found,
a place of wisdom
so profound,
but my stubbornness
is yet to be ready
for the approaching
of that place that's steady.
When my anger that
surpasses passes
maybe then can I
look through the glasses.
I hope it's soon
that this anguish of arrogance leaves
so I can once again
feel some kind of peace.

Inconvenient for You

Don't hate me because I dream.
Don't despise me because I need an outlet.
I'm sorry if my fantasies have become
so inconvenient for you yet.
I'm sorry if I can't do things
the way that might be easier for you to swallow,
but at this point my dreams have no choice
but to escape through me and for me to follow.

I'm not here to intentionally aggravate you
but I can't gingerly live for your own ease.
I don't have a choice with what I've been given
but to run out to share with all so One is appeased.
I can no longer live to not offend
without having a conscience to object.
I will no longer be afraid to live life
in a way that will cause this ship to be wrecked.
I was not put here to hold these things in
because it would make easier the mundane.
I cannot walk the straight line because it's requested
without becoming the definition of insane.

Don't hate me because I dream.
Don't despise me because I need an outlet.
I am here for one reason and one reason only:
to live life the right way and to take this truth and shout it.