Expectations

I get discouraged,
get so down
for every time of need
I feel you're not around.
I need something done,
I need You to come through
exactly when
I want You to.
I know what
and who You are
but that's a cry
from what I want, so far.
I don't always
want what's offered
for I expect
something other.
It is at this point
that I remember
that You are no genie
but rather Someone greater.
You don't solve every
one of my petty
problems when I want
but rather when You're ready.
You don't succumb
to my selfish whims
for that would bring
an outcome too grim.
You don't listen
to me when
it would destroy
my soul right then.
Instead you say "no"
and upset me
to, in the long run,
make me happy.
You steer me away
from my desires
that would lead
me to the fires
and instead protect
me from all bad
like You always have,
my eternal Dad.
The love you show
day by day
is one I could
never deserve this way
but no matter what
I've said or done,
you hold on tightly to me
as Your child, like I'm the only one;
and for that, I love you.