No Exit

I memorize the moves
but forget what they're for.
I go to enter
the house without the door.
I enter a state
of excitement, sheer glee
to realize the truth:
the surprise is not for me.
The turns I memorized
to help down the road
no longer have a bearing
on the current carried load.
The depression sets in
that the game for which
I was finally prepared
has suddenly been switched
as now I am more
lost than ever before
with no more memorized
and no exit, no door.